My birthday

It was pleasant.
The two hours delay was ok, I got two more hours of sleep. That was a nice present.
I am happy that people wished me a happy birthday. Thanks to the internet, people know. I am GLaD, it made my day. Oh, I just remember, because of the delay, I missed Mrs. Laabs' birthday song. But I still got a birthday song, and an attempt to sing Chinese happy birthday song.
I got some red pocket from families. A cake was baked for me from my sister. The inside tasted good, the outside was meh.

I don't know how I am feeling. I feel happy and GLad, but at the same time I feel melancholy and depressed. Wait does melancholy and depressed mean the same thing?
Anyway, I am happy that I'll be an adult soon. I'll be free, going to college, no more oppression of the education system.
But I am having some sort of 17/100 life crisis, or a 17% life crisis. My childhood is coming to a close. My careless days will soon be over. I would have to take care of my self. When I go to college, my friends will be leaving. I have so much to do, with so little time.
Am I just afraid of being an adult, or just don't want to give up my childhood?
Am I afraid of my indecisiveness of the future?

But no mater how I feel, I should look forward for the future. I am over thinking about this.
Hey! Super Smash Brother comes out next week! My birthday present will be so much fun!

Why the hell am I spelling GLaD like this? Why am I asking this on my blog? It like I am talking to my self, but only spelling it out. Woh... What the hell is wrong with me? I should shut up.

Dream Dream Dream!

I've been having weird dream lately.

Saturday night, I had a dream about this girl from my American Government class last semester that I barely know. It is about how she is an illegal French immigrant.

Last night, I had two dreams.

The first one is about how the US army/air force is having soldiers is having a high orbital insertion into Australia.

The last one is about how a Star Fleet ship is entering the Andromeda Galaxy and was being attacked by an unknown allien space ship. Then the captain call for preparation to abandon ship.

My mind is so weird.

The Beautiful and the Ugly

I love and hate the snow.
It is beautiful, but deadly.

I am GLaD that school closed. But I am wondering about if we have to make up for any day. I am also GLaD that we don't have delay, I am always in a rush durning delays.

I saw many snow men. I saw a huge one a block down from my house.

The future?

We will have to turn in our registration from tomorrow.
Damn. Time past by so fucking fast.

Next year, I'll be taking:
Calculus
AP Chemistry (might change)
Physic
Creative Writing
Sr Seminar: Sci-Fi & Fantasy
Pop Culture

I am still deciding what to take for PSEOP


My birthday is also tomorrow. I feel weird about my birthday. It is the last birthday of my childhood. I have one more year to enjoy the carelessness of being a kid. But I have one more year left untill I gain freedom of adulthood.

Oh well. "The more birthday you have, the longer you'll live."

Data Burst Complete

Yesterday night and this morning, I uploaded many Megabyte of digital photography on to MySpace and FaceBook.

I have check my hard drive, I have 18.9 Gigabyte pictures on it.

Coming Home...

...Was great!

Most of it was great. Megan and friends is disturbing.. (>.<) I need a shrink because of them...

Music was alright, but there were a few unexpected ones. Like 'one more time', 'barbie girl', and some NSYNC song.

Sandy and Melanie, maybe me too, did pull a prank on Megan. Meg forgot her wallet on a table, they took every thing out of it. I return the wallet to Meg. Meg yelled out "SOME ONE CLEANED ME OUT!!!" It was very funny. Then Mel suggested to Meg to report it. We ran after her to stop, because we pulled the prank.

Forth time

Today my laptop froze three times. That make the total of forth. The forth one happened just a few minuets ago.

I have no fucking idea why the hell is it happening. WHY!!!! I doubt it is a VISTA problem.
It just sadden me. What is wrong??

I wasn't even doing anything extreme. All happen while I was running internet explorer.

(>.<)

Home Sick Syndrome

The new year reminds me of how much I miss Hong Kong.
I haven't experienced real new year festivity for, I think, eight years.
I have a dream a few days back. It was about Hong Kong.
I miss that place...

New Year Blues

Ok, it isn't exactly the new year. But a few days after it.
New Year was actually great. Well not really great, I'll talk about why on my next post.

The New Year celebration at BGSU hosted by the CSSA gets worst by the year.
There used to be crappy Chinese-ish food cooked by the BGSU food services. Now they just have crappy sorry excuse for pizza. What the hell is that!! It is a Chinese celebration and all they are giving us are shitty pizza?!

The performance is also a bit disappointing. They are all good, but only a few are actually related to the new year. Other are just Chinese pop song, and western classical music. I want to listen to some old fashion Erhu or Liuqin. I can listen to violin and piano any time I want.

I want the good old fashion celebration that I grew up with. Candies, Red Pocket, the new year markets, the decorations.

The GodDamn cold

The weather is so goddamn cold.
My house is so goddamn cold.
What the hell is wrong with the weather?
Climate change, that's why.
I can't wait till summer...
But then, I'll be complaining about the heat.
Circle of seasons, no weather is actually good for anyone, especially here in BG....
At least we are not flooding..

Lake BGHS and the fog

Snow melted, fog arose, lake emerged.

The school drive way flooded,

and spilled over onto the grass.

Oh, how I want some rubber duckies,

to throw it into the pond.

Cars derived by the lake,

waves arose to the shore.

Almost got my pant leg wet,

but I jumped to escape those muddy water.

.

.

The elementary got delayed and we did not.

Oh, how unfair is that?

The fog blinded my sight,

can't even see the next street.

With the fog in my vision,

It reminded me of the movie Mist,

Where bugs from other dimension,

that rip out your eyes.

"Even though you broke my heart.....

.....And killed me. And tore me to pieces. And threw every piece into a fire."

A broken heart could feel like that I guess. I wouldn't know. I don't want to know, but it is an unavoidable part of life. I will know, unfortunately.

We human are weird. We are one of a few animals on earth that have emotional attachment with our mate. It is good a guess. We are advance enough to some what disregard physical attraction or lust. This make us superior to other animals, even those of our closest relatives don't have these logical feature.

We youngsters are naive and inexperience. Are we, only had live less than two decade, ready for relationship and love? The youngsters of the past got married and started family at our age. But then again people don't live that long back then.

Time didn't just changed how long we live, but how we live as well. Our culture changed. Society changed.

We, youngsters are emotionally unstable. Hormone bouncing everywhere, causing unstable emotion and thinking. We are too impulsive and jumps into a relationship with someone. That person might or might not be the best for them. When/if it end, the heart is broken. And throw into a depression.

Personally, I wouldn't call it 'heart broken.' Heart broken is heart disease. I would call it emotionally broken. It happens in the brain, not heart. It effect everything that the brain control. It is a broken brain.

Is high school relationship worth it? The couple is most likely going to break up. From what I learn in biology last year, a high school relationship could last at the shortest average at two weeks, from getting attracted to a heartbroken breakup. But high school could also be the place to find the love of one's life.

For some, the risks outweigh the benefits. For other, the benefits outweigh the risks.
I am still deciding what outweigh what for me... I also have to consider what outweigh what for the person... High school is so short, once it end, our life have to part and move on the colleges and jobs. The separation might also hurt like a 'broken heart'.

A friend of mine said that "There are only two kinds of relationships in high school. One is friends with benefits, the other are force into a relationship."
I don't believe that. There could be something meaningful. The couple just have to work hard on the relationship.

Love, like the human brain and our emotion, is a mysterious thing. Scientist only found out a very little part about how love works. I doubt they'll figure it out entirely.



The quote form atop is from the ending song of the game Portal. The song name is "Still Alive", sang by Ellen McLain, and written by Jonathan Coulton.

The tale of a protractor

There is this on going feud between two people.

One of the person is a loser person, the other is a bitchy person.

The bitch had this broken protractor and didn't want it, but didn't want to throw it away. So she gave the protractor to the loser.

The loser didn't want to throw it away for her, so he gave it back to the bitchy person. The bitchy person then stealthily put the protractor into the loser's backpack.

On next day, the bitch threw the protractor at the loser. The loser then stealthily put the protractor into the bitchy person's hoodie.

A few days later, the loser found the protractor in his backpack again. He went to the bitchy person's locker and tape the protractor on it and making it look like a smile face. Later that day, the bitchy person, once again, sneak the protractor into the loser's backpack. The loser found it very soon. He chase after the bitchy person and threw it at her and dash off.

A few weeks later, a friend of the loser gave him the protractor. She was ordered by the bitchy person two weeks ago, but she had forgotten. Later that day, he tape the protractor onto the bitch's locker. Once again, he made a face, but this time the face he put onto the locker is an angry face.

The feud had not ended yet. No one knows when will it end.

SWAMPED

Swamped was great!! The one hour collection of skits that is about the history of Bowling Green. My favorite skit is The Clock Tower Birds. It talked about how pigeons made the clock hands move making it another time. My second favorite is Bowling Green's Fight for the County Seat. Bowling Green vs. Parrisburg fought for the county seat base on population. Bowling Green got helped from neighboring towns and won.

I love these kinds of collection of skits. They have very low amount of props. Simple and the focus is on the story, not anything else.

GOD DAMN CRASH!!!!!!

Sim City 4 is great, but for some reason it keep crashing!!!! I used to be not this bad, but it keeps getting worst. I cried three drops of tears as my works get deleted.

DAMN VISTA!!!!!

Sim City 4

I now have an addiction of Sim City 4. There is some sort of satisfaction when creating something, even if it is not real.

I downloaded mods and new building off the internet. Each download making my cities more and more magnificent.

I admit I have to cheat some time, but the city looks great. On those that I didn't cheat on, it is that much more satisfying. The hardest part of all cities are balancing the budget. Making sure that the city makes more money then it spending.

Sims game, although sometime could be a bit frustrating, but it is much more fun and satisfying than other type of games.